Another day, another acupuncture session with Dr. Phil. My health had once again taken a downturn. This constant up and down is kind-of frustrating. It is however slowly (very slowly) teaching me to transcend the bodily situation.
As previously mentioned, the root cause of my illness is my mind. There is a profound link between a person's mental situation and their ability to digest. Students, in particular, are prone to digestion problems (ulcerative colitis, irritable bowel syndrome, etc.), because their occupation is "thinking". It works both ways: improving your digestion helps you think and improving your thinking helps you digest. The intense studying I'm doing certainly does not help my condition. The mental stress and anxiety is getting to me.
I need to become less mental and more body-conscious.
As devotees we might think that to be on the bodily platform is "maya", but the mental platform is equally illusory. To think one illusion is better than the other is totally bogus. The fact is that we need to be conscious of both and slowly practice detachment.
Curiously, emotions are "felt" in the body. They are not something mental. Philip told me I need to increase my feeling of emotions as part of being more bodily conscious. I'm somewhat out-of-touch with my emotion/body and therefore suffering from a somewhat out-of-balance mind. I need to be less analytical and more emotional (difficult seeing my field of research is "logic").
Of course, the perfection of Krishna consciousness is all about developing the most powerful and deep emotion: love.
Philip, in addition to sticking needles in me, also did some moxibustion on a point class the "gate to vitality". It was quite difficult to find. Phil needed to do all kinds of measurement and calculations to correctly locate it. I felt quite warm after the burning-of-herbs. Indeed, that was the point: increase the heat, reduce the damp.
Acupuncture treatment, as good as it is, helps the symptoms but doesn't last. After a few weeks the treatment usually wears out and my health starts deteriorating again.
As for the long term outlook: it might be that some day my condition will tip over and become cured. However, for now, all we can do is to continue fixing and patching and hoping for the best. In the end, everything is up to you-know-who.