Devamrita Swami: Krishna is full of paradoxes
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Verse: Damodarastaka prayers, verse #2
Place: Dortmund, Germany
Time: 48 min.

Summary:
Krishna is the most beautiful little cowheard boy. He is also the Supreme Lord. He is full of paradoxes: here is God and he is hungry, attention seeking, wanting to be fed, stealing butter, fearfully running away, being caught and bound up by his mother. Only in Vrindavana, where no one thinks of Krishna as God, can such intimate pastimes take place. Brahma and Siva can??(TM)t relate with Krishna in such ways. Our goal in the month of Kartika should be to understand this Krishna.

Questions:

  • Was Krishna really afraid, or was he just putting on a show?
  • Isn??(TM)t it impossible to understand Krishna?

Bugs fixed
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I've just fixed some bugs in this website. Some dead links in the picture gallery now work. The entire site should now display better in Internet Explorer ... and if you are still using Internet Explorer:

Get Firefox!

Bugs fixed
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I've just fixed some bugs in this website. Some dead links in the picture gallery now work. The entire site should now display better in Internet Explorer ... and if you are still using Internet Explorer:

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Polish
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In today??(TM)s world it is not enough simply to offer some service or product. Products and services are very quickly becoming commoditized, so one must offer some extra value in order to stand out of the crowd. One??(TM)s offering needs to be polished. Here are some examples:

Mac OS X is a very polished computer operating system software: much more so than Windows and much, much more so than Linux (which might have all the features, but lacks the glitter). Polish may seem irrelevant to someone who just wants something that will get the job done, but most people want more. My parents were certainly impressed at the rotating cube fast user switching effect on their Mac mini. That sort of good impression is much more important than the ability to open a file a few milliseconds more quickly.

A good yoga teacher will not just show the yoga asanas (postures). He or she will give a running commentary, tell jokes, tell stories, correct the students??(TM) postures, offer complements to the students when they perform a difficult asana, play background music, light incense, in short, offer a whole polished yoga-experience. Anyone can, after all, do gymnastic exercise.

Chanting the Hare Krishna Maha-Mantra is easy. You just say the words. However, attentive chanting is difficult (at least for me). The aim is to be so fixed in one??(TM)s attention and cry out with such sincerity that Krishna can??(TM)t help but take personal notice. Even chanting just one mantra in such a pure fashion can make someone completely Krishna conscious in an instant. All material contamination is brushed aside. Someone like me however is far away from that stage of shininess and needs to keep polishing. Luckily, practicing the chanting is the very means of polish.

Polish
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In today??(TM)s world it is not enough simply to offer some service or product. Products and services are very quickly becoming commoditized, so one must offer some extra value in order to stand out of the crowd. One??(TM)s offering needs to be polished. Here are some examples:

Mac OS X is a very polished computer operating system software: much more so than Windows and much, much more so than Linux (which might have all the features, but lacks the glitter). Polish may seem irrelevant to someone who just wants something that will get the job done, but most people want more. My parents were certainly impressed at the rotating cube fast user switching effect on their Mac mini. That sort of good impression is much more important than the ability to open a file a few milliseconds more quickly.

A good yoga teacher will not just show the yoga asanas (postures). He or she will give a running commentary, tell jokes, tell stories, correct the students??(TM) postures, offer complements to the students when they perform a difficult asana, play background music, light incense, in short, offer a whole polished yoga-experience. Anyone can, after all, do gymnastic exercise.

Chanting the Hare Krishna Maha-Mantra is easy. You just say the words. However, attentive chanting is difficult (at least for me). The aim is to be so fixed in one??(TM)s attention and cry out with such sincerity that Krishna can??(TM)t help but take personal notice. Even chanting just one mantra in such a pure fashion can make someone completely Krishna conscious in an instant. All material contamination is brushed aside. Someone like me however is far away from that stage of shininess and needs to keep polishing. Luckily, practicing the chanting is the very means of polish.

On intelligent design
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I heard a researcher make the following comment in a recent mp3 lecture I was listening to: ??oeThe fact that all species use DNA as their means of copying and reproduction is the single most compelling proof of the theory of evolution.??

Juxtaposing that with the following: ??oeThe fact that computers all use transistors is the single most compelling proof that they came about by random mutations of silicon ore.??

On intelligent design
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I heard a researcher make the following comment in a recent mp3 lecture I was listening to: ??oeThe fact that all species use DNA as their means of copying and reproduction is the single most compelling proof of the theory of evolution.??

Juxtaposing that with the following: ??oeThe fact that computers all use transistors is the single most compelling proof that they came about by random mutations of silicon ore.??

Devamrita Swami: the highest thing
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Verse: SB 4.29.36-37
Place: Goloka Dhama, Abentheuer, Germany
Time: 56 min.

Summary:
Material happiness is altogether miserable and blinds one to the real goal of life. This should be our mission statement. Of course, we??(TM)re not kill-joys who look down all happiness. A devotee is meant to be jolly. At the same time there should not be spiritual hedonism.

Prabhupada set the standard: there was a controversy in Los Angeles where devotees where only reading certain intimate sections of Prabhupada??(TM)s books. Prabhupada was furious when he found out.

The highest level of spiritual life is not to become a rasika, but to sacrifice for preaching. This is the actual mood of the gopis in Vrindavana. The highest level of Krishna consciousness: love in separation.

The austerity of leadership is the greatest sacrifice. Co-operating with other leaders is especially difficult. More difficult than controlling sex desire. This is why Prabhupada established the GBC. It is radically different from the traditional matha system of one person being the acharya. ISKCON however is bigger than any one person.

Devamrita Swami: the highest thing
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Verse: SB 4.29.36-37
Place: Goloka Dhama, Abentheuer, Germany
Time: 56 min.

Summary:
Material happiness is altogether miserable and blinds one to the real goal of life. This should be our mission statement. Of course, we??(TM)re not kill-joys who look down all happiness. A devotee is meant to be jolly. At the same time there should not be spiritual hedonism.

Prabhupada set the standard: there was a controversy in Los Angeles where devotees where only reading certain intimate sections of Prabhupada??(TM)s books. Prabhupada was furious when he found out.

The highest level of spiritual life is not to become a rasika, but to sacrifice for preaching. This is the actual mood of the gopis in Vrindavana. The highest level of Krishna consciousness: love in separation.

The austerity of leadership is the greatest sacrifice. Co-operating with other leaders is especially difficult. More difficult than controlling sex desire. This is why Prabhupada established the GBC. It is radically different from the traditional matha system of one person being the acharya. ISKCON however is bigger than any one person.

New email strategy
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(Warning: this is going to be kind-of technical)

I??(TM)ve just changed how I deal with email. Here is what I did:

I opened two accounts using Google??(TM)s free Gmail service. I then set my university email account to forward all messages I get to one Gmail account. I then set that Gmail account to forward all messages it gets to the other Gmail account (but does not archive it). This second Gmail account applied various filters and labels to all incoming messages. Newsgroup messages are, for example, automatically archived upon receipt. That way they don??(TM)t clog my inbox, but I can search them quickly and easily using Google if I need to. I then also set all my private email account to forward to email to this second email account.

To check email I simply download from the second Gmail account using Microsoft Outlook and POP, or, if I??(TM)m traveling or am at University, just log into Gmail. When I??(TM)m in University, I download from the first Gmail account and set Gmail to archive the messages I have downloaded. That way my work machine only gets PhD related email.

The end result: All my email is backed up on one Gmail account, my University email and private email are separated, I have a nice email web interface I can use when on the road and both my home and University PCs get copies of all email relevant to me at those locations.

Now, all that was left to do was to create a backup of all my old email. After some trying I used to University??(TM)s SMTP server to and Mozilla Thunderbird (using an extension called Redirect, which has the ability to bounce email messages) to forward all my old email to myself in the newly setup Gmail accounts. I don??(TM)t think the University was too happy about my suddenly spamming their server with the 20000 (don??(TM)t ask) emails I??(TM)ve received in the past year and a half. Anyway, it??(TM)s for a good cause and they haven??(TM)t blocked me yet.

This all worked well. I now have all my old email stored in Gmail for instant access wherever I go.

New email strategy
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(Warning: this is going to be kind-of technical)

I??(TM)ve just changed how I deal with email. Here is what I did:

I opened two accounts using Google??(TM)s free Gmail service. I then set my university email account to forward all messages I get to one Gmail account. I then set that Gmail account to forward all messages it gets to the other Gmail account (but does not archive it). This second Gmail account applied various filters and labels to all incoming messages. Newsgroup messages are, for example, automatically archived upon receipt. That way they don??(TM)t clog my inbox, but I can search them quickly and easily using Google if I need to. I then also set all my private email account to forward to email to this second email account.

To check email I simply download from the second Gmail account using Microsoft Outlook and POP, or, if I??(TM)m traveling or am at University, just log into Gmail. When I??(TM)m in University, I download from the first Gmail account and set Gmail to archive the messages I have downloaded. That way my work machine only gets PhD related email.

The end result: All my email is backed up on one Gmail account, my University email and private email are separated, I have a nice email web interface I can use when on the road and both my home and University PCs get copies of all email relevant to me at those locations.

Now, all that was left to do was to create a backup of all my old email. After some trying I used to University??(TM)s SMTP server to and Mozilla Thunderbird (using an extension called Redirect, which has the ability to bounce email messages) to forward all my old email to myself in the newly setup Gmail accounts. I don??(TM)t think the University was too happy about my suddenly spamming their server with the 20000 (don??(TM)t ask) emails I??(TM)ve received in the past year and a half. Anyway, it??(TM)s for a good cause and they haven??(TM)t blocked me yet.

This all worked well. I now have all my old email stored in Gmail for instant access wherever I go.

Devamrita Swami: Questions & Answers
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Place: Goloka Dhama, Abentheuer, Germany
Time: 38 min.

Questions:

  • The king and householder Maharaja Rantideva didn??(TM)t teach spiritual knowledge directly, so how can we learn from him?
  • How will someone learn from the reactions to their bad deeds in past lives if they can??(TM)t remember them?
  • How can we possibly offend Krishna? Who are we to be able to offend God?
  • How to be so compassionate that we accept other??(TM)s suffering?
  • Was Citraketu??(TM)s insulting Lord Siva and being cursed by Parvati Krishna??(TM)s arrangement?
  • When and how do we get the mercy of the devotee?
  • What is the nature of ??oerealization???
  • How can we change our tactics to better connect with present-day people?
  • How do we understand the Bhagavad-Gita where Krishna says that he who explains him to the devotee is most dear?
  • Krishna is self-satisfied and has only created this material world for our sake, but he arranged for Jaya and Vijaya??(TM)s falldown so he could have a good fight. Isn??(TM)t that some selfish desire on his part?

Devamrita Swami: Questions & Answers
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Place: Goloka Dhama, Abentheuer, Germany
Time: 38 min.

Questions:

  • The king and householder Maharaja Rantideva didn??(TM)t teach spiritual knowledge directly, so how can we learn from him?
  • How will someone learn from the reactions to their bad deeds in past lives if they can??(TM)t remember them?
  • How can we possibly offend Krishna? Who are we to be able to offend God?
  • How to be so compassionate that we accept other??(TM)s suffering?
  • Was Citraketu??(TM)s insulting Lord Siva and being cursed by Parvati Krishna??(TM)s arrangement?
  • When and how do we get the mercy of the devotee?
  • What is the nature of ??oerealization???
  • How can we change our tactics to better connect with present-day people?
  • How do we understand the Bhagavad-Gita where Krishna says that he who explains him to the devotee is most dear?
  • Krishna is self-satisfied and has only created this material world for our sake, but he arranged for Jaya and Vijaya??(TM)s falldown so he could have a good fight. Isn??(TM)t that some selfish desire on his part?

Vedicsoc: session #7
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I taught a full 90-minute power yoga session this week in Vedicsoc. A total of four people attended. Two new guests came. Both were attracted by the prospect of intense exercise and not really interested in the Vedic knowledge. That??(TM)s the point of the power yoga aspect of atma-yoga: to be mainstream and attractive to common-joe-consumer. The new guests could however be persuaded to engage in some purifying mantra-meditation at the start of the session and also engage in some purifying prasadam taking at the end.

I??(TM)m continually surprised that, despite the general state of disrepair of my body, I manage to execute the yoga asanas I teach for longer than any of the (obviously serious unfit) students. Maybe I??(TM)m just getting extra power from an unseen source. Who can say?

Vedicsoc: session #7
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I taught a full 90-minute power yoga session this week in Vedicsoc. A total of four people attended. Two new guests came. Both were attracted by the prospect of intense exercise and not really interested in the Vedic knowledge. That??(TM)s the point of the power yoga aspect of atma-yoga: to be mainstream and attractive to common-joe-consumer. The new guests could however be persuaded to engage in some purifying mantra-meditation at the start of the session and also engage in some purifying prasadam taking at the end.

I??(TM)m continually surprised that, despite the general state of disrepair of my body, I manage to execute the yoga asanas I teach for longer than any of the (obviously serious unfit) students. Maybe I??(TM)m just getting extra power from an unseen source. Who can say?

The Joel Test: better software development
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Joel Spolsky, a prominent blogger and CEO of a small software company, wrote an article on a 12 steps for better software development. The article is from the year 2000, but still relevant today.

The Joel Test: 12 Steps to Better Code

While a University's main purpose isn't exactly software development, computer scientist researchers do frequently have to do programming. Here's how my research group rates based on Joel's criteria:

# Do you use source control?
- Yes (well, half the time, at least for the main project)

# Can you make a build in one step?
- No

# Do you make daily builds?
- No

# Do you have a bug database?
- Yes (finally)

# Do you fix bugs before writing new code?
- No

# Do you have an up-to-date schedule?
- What's a schedule?

# Do you have a spec?
- What's a spec?

# Do programmers have quiet working conditions?
- Hell no.

# Do you use the best tools money can buy?
- No way (our PCs don't even have CD-burners)

# Do you have testers?
- The users are the testers, aren't they?

# Do new candidates write code during their interview?
- No

# Do you do hallway usability testing?
- Kind of

So: 2.5 / 12.

Not the greatest of scores. Now, I could try to revolutionize the University: transform the stale, old practices into a new high-tech, high-productivity environment that students and researchers love to work in. March into the dean's office demanding that he break down the establishment, write essays, post flyers, complain to everyone in the department ...

Or I could just tolerate and leave the country as soon as possible ...

The Joel Test: better software development
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Joel Spolsky, a prominent blogger and CEO of a small software company, wrote an article on a 12 steps for better software development. The article is from the year 2000, but still relevant today.

The Joel Test: 12 Steps to Better Code

While a University's main purpose isn't exactly software development, computer scientist researchers do frequently have to do programming. Here's how my research group rates based on Joel's criteria:

# Do you use source control?
- Yes (well, half the time, at least for the main project)

# Can you make a build in one step?
- No

# Do you make daily builds?
- No

# Do you have a bug database?
- Yes (finally)

# Do you fix bugs before writing new code?
- No

# Do you have an up-to-date schedule?
- What's a schedule?

# Do you have a spec?
- What's a spec?

# Do programmers have quiet working conditions?
- Hell no.

# Do you use the best tools money can buy?
- No way (our PCs don't even have CD-burners)

# Do you have testers?
- The users are the testers, aren't they?

# Do new candidates write code during their interview?
- No

# Do you do hallway usability testing?
- Kind of

So: 2.5 / 12.

Not the greatest of scores. Now, I could try to revolutionize the University: transform the stale, old practices into a new high-tech, high-productivity environment that students and researchers love to work in. March into the dean's office demanding that he break down the establishment, write essays, post flyers, complain to everyone in the department ...

Or I could just tolerate and leave the country as soon as possible ...

Devamrita Swami: Krishna consciousness is the only way
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Verse: SB 4.29.35
Place: Goloka Dhama, Abentheuer, Germany
Time: 49 min.

Summary:
"To become free from material misery one must take to Krishna consciousness". Is this a sectarian or even fanatical statement? Why not respect everyone??(TM)s paths equally?

Not discriminating between various different spiritual paths is covered impersonalism, Devamrita Swami explains. Our career is to understand Krishna. His personal qualities, likes, dislikes, etc. We have to get over the fear that we are being sectarian by focusing on Krishna.

You may object: "Not Krishna!", but if not Krishna, then who? What other solution is there? Where else is there so much specific and detailed information about God?

Srila Prabhupada was a master teacher. He made the most complex subject matters very easy to understand. His books are practical, goal oriented and certainly don??(TM)t contain any foggy, new-age statements. Don??(TM)t just read his books once. Everyone should have the experience that they can read Prabhupada??(TM)s books over and over again and realize the ever freshness of devotional service.

Questions:

  • Preaching is sometimes difficult because we have the Krishna stigma attached to us.
  • I realize I need a deep understand of the philosophy, but isn??(TM)t endeavoring for knowledge a material activity?
  • We see that a lot of older devotees are fading away, especially now.
  • What about other Vaisnava disciplic successions? Why stay in ISKCON?

Devamrita Swami: Krishna consciousness is the only way
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Verse: SB 4.29.35
Place: Goloka Dhama, Abentheuer, Germany
Time: 49 min.

Summary:
"To become free from material misery one must take to Krishna consciousness". Is this a sectarian or even fanatical statement? Why not respect everyone??(TM)s paths equally?

Not discriminating between various different spiritual paths is covered impersonalism, Devamrita Swami explains. Our career is to understand Krishna. His personal qualities, likes, dislikes, etc. We have to get over the fear that we are being sectarian by focusing on Krishna.

You may object: "Not Krishna!", but if not Krishna, then who? What other solution is there? Where else is there so much specific and detailed information about God?

Srila Prabhupada was a master teacher. He made the most complex subject matters very easy to understand. His books are practical, goal oriented and certainly don??(TM)t contain any foggy, new-age statements. Don??(TM)t just read his books once. Everyone should have the experience that they can read Prabhupada??(TM)s books over and over again and realize the ever freshness of devotional service.

Questions:

  • Preaching is sometimes difficult because we have the Krishna stigma attached to us.
  • I realize I need a deep understand of the philosophy, but isn??(TM)t endeavoring for knowledge a material activity?
  • We see that a lot of older devotees are fading away, especially now.
  • What about other Vaisnava disciplic successions? Why stay in ISKCON?

Semantic web vs. world
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from http://www.ftrain.com/ProcessingProcessing.html:

World: I'd love to make my web site smarter, link things together more intelligently.

Semantic Web Research Community: Sure! You need a generalized framework for ontology development.

World: Okay. That'll help me link things together more easily?

SWRC: Even better, it will lead to a giant throbbing robot world-brain that arranges dentist's appointments for you! Just read the Scientific American article.

World: Will that be a lot of work?

SWRC: No. But even if it is, we will blame you for being too stupid to understand why you need it.

World: Huh. I guess so. But I don't understand why I need it, exactly.

SWRC: That is because you are too stupid. It's fine, we have your best interests in mind.

World: I don't want to nag, but while I read a book on set theory, how about those fancy links?

SWRC: Well, if you insist, and can't wait, there's always XLink.

World: Aha. That looks handy...except, oh, there's no easily available implementation. And I'm not really sure what it's supposed to do.

SWRC: That is because you are lazy and stupid.

World: Ah well. Do you think I should apply for grants for the development of my little web site Ftrain.com? Just enough for a monthly unlimited Metrocard would be a help.

SWRC: We will have all the grants! Be gone with your bachelor's degree from a second-tier private liberal arts college! And where is your RSS feed?

World: Sorry.

SWRC: Slacker! Bring me more graduate students, I am hungry!

Semantic web vs. world
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from http://www.ftrain.com/ProcessingProcessing.html:

World: I'd love to make my web site smarter, link things together more intelligently.

Semantic Web Research Community: Sure! You need a generalized framework for ontology development.

World: Okay. That'll help me link things together more easily?

SWRC: Even better, it will lead to a giant throbbing robot world-brain that arranges dentist's appointments for you! Just read the Scientific American article.

World: Will that be a lot of work?

SWRC: No. But even if it is, we will blame you for being too stupid to understand why you need it.

World: Huh. I guess so. But I don't understand why I need it, exactly.

SWRC: That is because you are too stupid. It's fine, we have your best interests in mind.

World: I don't want to nag, but while I read a book on set theory, how about those fancy links?

SWRC: Well, if you insist, and can't wait, there's always XLink.

World: Aha. That looks handy...except, oh, there's no easily available implementation. And I'm not really sure what it's supposed to do.

SWRC: That is because you are lazy and stupid.

World: Ah well. Do you think I should apply for grants for the development of my little web site Ftrain.com? Just enough for a monthly unlimited Metrocard would be a help.

SWRC: We will have all the grants! Be gone with your bachelor's degree from a second-tier private liberal arts college! And where is your RSS feed?

World: Sorry.

SWRC: Slacker! Bring me more graduate students, I am hungry!

Slaughter: lessons learnt
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When you come up with a new idea, for heavens sake, don??(TM)t present in a public forum: envious, self-obsessed people will cut you down to make themselves look good. Instead, talk to as many people as possible one-to-one. Get their feedback and slowly perfect the idea, so that, when it comes time to present it, everyone in the room already knows all about it and agrees with your plan (and there was no reason anymore to actually give the presentation).

Researchers will try to help each other up to a point, but everyone very much looks out for their own prestige and publication count. This is very different from working in a company: there maximum teamwork is encouraged. ??oeWorks well in a team?? is never in the job description for a researcher, but very much a critical skill for any corporate employee. Firms are in the research game so that the company as-a-whole can make more money. Universities are also in the research game to make more (government grant) money, but it??(TM)s more every man/woman/student for himself/herself.

There is more freedom in academic, but also more competition. Whereas employees in the corporate world are slaves, but at least don??(TM)t need to worry about someone stealing their good ideas.

However, whatever the field of work, the politics and social manipulation is often much more important than actual skill. I might as well try to learn (or renouce it all and live the worry free, easy life of a saint).

Slaughter: lessons learnt
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When you come up with a new idea, for heavens sake, don??(TM)t present in a public forum: envious, self-obsessed people will cut you down to make themselves look good. Instead, talk to as many people as possible one-to-one. Get their feedback and slowly perfect the idea, so that, when it comes time to present it, everyone in the room already knows all about it and agrees with your plan (and there was no reason anymore to actually give the presentation).

Researchers will try to help each other up to a point, but everyone very much looks out for their own prestige and publication count. This is very different from working in a company: there maximum teamwork is encouraged. ??oeWorks well in a team?? is never in the job description for a researcher, but very much a critical skill for any corporate employee. Firms are in the research game so that the company as-a-whole can make more money. Universities are also in the research game to make more (government grant) money, but it??(TM)s more every man/woman/student for himself/herself.

There is more freedom in academic, but also more competition. Whereas employees in the corporate world are slaves, but at least don??(TM)t need to worry about someone stealing their good ideas.

However, whatever the field of work, the politics and social manipulation is often much more important than actual skill. I might as well try to learn (or renouce it all and live the worry free, easy life of a saint).

George Best: taste for sense objects remains
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The death of superstar footballer George Best was the talk of the office yesterday. I??(TM)d never heard of the guy, but apparently he had all kinds of problems. One of my colleagues remarked how amazing it was that despite having a liver translate and knowing that any alcohol could kill him, he still could not give up drinking.

I picked up a Bhagavad-Gita from my desk, opened it to verse 59 in chapter two and handed it to her. It certainly got her thinking. She read the verse about five times and then studied the purport.

In the end she asked if one had to be vegetarian to practice this process. I explained it??(TM)s a natural result of the practice and not really a big deal. She replied that she just liked the taste of meat too much: anyway, It??(TM)s natural to eat meat, right? I didn??(TM)t press the argument (and she does like the prasadam that I make every week).

She asked a few more questions, but then got distracted by her laptop (IBM Thinkpad) spontaneously rebooting itself.

George Best: taste for sense objects remains
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The death of superstar footballer George Best was the talk of the office yesterday. I??(TM)d never heard of the guy, but apparently he had all kinds of problems. One of my colleagues remarked how amazing it was that despite having a liver translate and knowing that any alcohol could kill him, he still could not give up drinking.

I picked up a Bhagavad-Gita from my desk, opened it to verse 59 in chapter two and handed it to her. It certainly got her thinking. She read the verse about five times and then studied the purport.

In the end she asked if one had to be vegetarian to practice this process. I explained it??(TM)s a natural result of the practice and not really a big deal. She replied that she just liked the taste of meat too much: anyway, It??(TM)s natural to eat meat, right? I didn??(TM)t press the argument (and she does like the prasadam that I make every week).

She asked a few more questions, but then got distracted by her laptop (IBM Thinkpad) spontaneously rebooting itself.

Acupuncture (part 4)
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I went to see Dr. Philip Weeks two days ago. It just so happened that I had an appointment just after that stressful presentation of mine. And yes, the stress certainly damaged my digestion.

Philip started off by burning Chinese herbs on various acupuncture points on my body. He would light the herb-powder, let it smoke and burn until it became uncomfortably hot on my skin, then quickly lifted it off. Burning the herbs apparently re-kindles the digestive fire in the body.

He also did some normal acupuncture on me. He stuck on needle in my forehead (third eye chakra) to release the stress I??(TM)ve been subjected to. He also did the usual points around my lower legs. Some points on my chest were troublesome. I??(TM)ve lots so much weight that there wasn??(TM)t enough muscle for the needle to trigger the chi flow. The needle were just (slightly) painful, without the strange tingling feeling of a successful acupuncture point.

Still, Phil was satisfied with the overall effect of the treatment. I feel a bit better today ??" I think. But then I do always feel a lot better straight after acupuncture treatment, but it wears off after a week. Ideally, I??(TM)d have acupuncture every week until my body gets the point and starts behaving the way it should. But alas, we don??(TM)t live in an ideal world.

Philip said that acupuncture is very good at inducing healing when you know exactly what the problem is. His Vega testing machine is very good at diagnosing illnesses, toxins and poisons. He can then use acupuncture to fix the problem, if the patient??(TM)s body does not respond to more high-tech homeopathy-type treatment. On top of that come various herbal tinctures that Phil mixes and prescribes.

I??(TM)m now taking a whole slew of herbs to try and get this broken down body machine working again:

Oregano complex kills yeast in my gut. That fungus better watch out! It also produces a strange oregano smell/burp about an hour after taking it.

Digestive enzymes are very powerful. They cause the food I eat to be digested earlier in the colon, thereby hopefully reducing the colonic irritation and increasing the amount of nutrients I absorb. They should allow me to gain some much needed weight. Something is certainly happening. I feel quite tired (more than usual) after eating and kind-of weird. I had a stomach ache last night. We??(TM)ll see how this develops.

Probiotics replenish the good bacteria in my digestive system.

Clay and slippery elm powered lines my colon wall, reducing irritation and allowing it to heal. It also stop diarrhea by expanding and almost crystallizing in contact with water. The clay-mesh slows the digestive process and forms clumps with any liquid.

Chickpea protein powder is a good source of protein (which my body desperately needs to build itself back up) that is not dairy related (since dairy products are difficult for my body to absorb in its current state).

Finally, detox tea, as the name implies, reduces toxins in my body. Always good.

Acupuncture (part 4)
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I went to see Dr. Philip Weeks two days ago. It just so happened that I had an appointment just after that stressful presentation of mine. And yes, the stress certainly damaged my digestion.

Philip started off by burning Chinese herbs on various acupuncture points on my body. He would light the herb-powder, let it smoke and burn until it became uncomfortably hot on my skin, then quickly lifted it off. Burning the herbs apparently re-kindles the digestive fire in the body.

He also did some normal acupuncture on me. He stuck on needle in my forehead (third eye chakra) to release the stress I??(TM)ve been subjected to. He also did the usual points around my lower legs. Some points on my chest were troublesome. I??(TM)ve lots so much weight that there wasn??(TM)t enough muscle for the needle to trigger the chi flow. The needle were just (slightly) painful, without the strange tingling feeling of a successful acupuncture point.

Still, Phil was satisfied with the overall effect of the treatment. I feel a bit better today ??" I think. But then I do always feel a lot better straight after acupuncture treatment, but it wears off after a week. Ideally, I??(TM)d have acupuncture every week until my body gets the point and starts behaving the way it should. But alas, we don??(TM)t live in an ideal world.

Philip said that acupuncture is very good at inducing healing when you know exactly what the problem is. His Vega testing machine is very good at diagnosing illnesses, toxins and poisons. He can then use acupuncture to fix the problem, if the patient??(TM)s body does not respond to more high-tech homeopathy-type treatment. On top of that come various herbal tinctures that Phil mixes and prescribes.

I??(TM)m now taking a whole slew of herbs to try and get this broken down body machine working again:

Oregano complex kills yeast in my gut. That fungus better watch out! It also produces a strange oregano smell/burp about an hour after taking it.

Digestive enzymes are very powerful. They cause the food I eat to be digested earlier in the colon, thereby hopefully reducing the colonic irritation and increasing the amount of nutrients I absorb. They should allow me to gain some much needed weight. Something is certainly happening. I feel quite tired (more than usual) after eating and kind-of weird. I had a stomach ache last night. We??(TM)ll see how this develops.

Probiotics replenish the good bacteria in my digestive system.

Clay and slippery elm powered lines my colon wall, reducing irritation and allowing it to heal. It also stop diarrhea by expanding and almost crystallizing in contact with water. The clay-mesh slows the digestive process and forms clumps with any liquid.

Chickpea protein powder is a good source of protein (which my body desperately needs to build itself back up) that is not dairy related (since dairy products are difficult for my body to absorb in its current state).

Finally, detox tea, as the name implies, reduces toxins in my body. Always good.

Slaughtered by logicians
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I gave a lunchtime presentation yesterday. It was the same event that my colleague got hammered at last week. Only this time practically the entire research group attended: about 35 people.

My presentation was about the potential future direction of my research. I had planned to talk about how I could incremental classify otherwise unmanageably large ontologies. However, I was barely past the first powerpoint slide when one professor started pointing out flaws in the formal language, logic and approach I was suggesting. I attempting to carry on, but as I went on, the audience of experts (Manchester is the world leader in automated reasoning/classification) pointed out more and more flaws and areas I had not yet though through sufficiently.

Very soon it didn??(TM)t matter what I said. No one was listening anymore. I had some genuinely good ideas, but by they were buried under the initial barrage.

I was surprised at the bloodlust with which I was set upon. My (wrong) assumption was that I could present my idea to a friendly group of fellow researchers to get useful feedback and advice. Instead, every tiny inconstancy and imprecise use of terminology was berated.

Advice from my supervisor (he couldn??(TM)t make it to my talk because he was out of the country at the time, but got emails expressing concerned from practically every researcher who was there): ??oeYou??(TM)re too far along in your career to get away with presenting half-baked ideas (though he said it was very good when I rehearsed the presentation with him the week before). Some of these people are so certain that they are right that they are very difficult to convince otherwise, even when they're wrong, which actually happens quite often??. I have to be super-rock-solid in knowing my stuff. Even with these so-called ??oefriends??.

My supervisor was supportive and impressed that I was not completely emotionally shattered by the experience. Note: I was certainly shattered, but chanting the Hare Krishna mantra the next morning drew all the emotion out of me and fixed my consciousness. My body is another (ongoing) story: more on that tomorrow.

I still think that my idea for incremental classification would work, but now it is probably best done in a different way by someone other than me. Also, now everyone in the department thinks I??(TM)m an idiot and don??(TM)t know what I??(TM)m talking about (and lots of people feel really sorry for me for being ripped apart so severely). So, I??(TM)m going to change the direction of my research away from the hard-core description logic to a more practical/maintenance focus.

Someone today asked me if the experience has put me off. It certainly has put me off logic. If becoming a logician turns people into a blood thirsty vampires, that??(TM)s not a career path of choice for me. I also prefer doing things which are of practically use. Formal logic can get rather theoretical.

So, in the end: my armour is cracked, my body is wounded, but I??(TM)m still alive. Time to regroup and fight a new battle on another day.

Slaughtered by logicians
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I gave a lunchtime presentation yesterday. It was the same event that my colleague got hammered at last week. Only this time practically the entire research group attended: about 35 people.

My presentation was about the potential future direction of my research. I had planned to talk about how I could incremental classify otherwise unmanageably large ontologies. However, I was barely past the first powerpoint slide when one professor started pointing out flaws in the formal language, logic and approach I was suggesting. I attempting to carry on, but as I went on, the audience of experts (Manchester is the world leader in automated reasoning/classification) pointed out more and more flaws and areas I had not yet though through sufficiently.

Very soon it didn??(TM)t matter what I said. No one was listening anymore. I had some genuinely good ideas, but by they were buried under the initial barrage.

I was surprised at the bloodlust with which I was set upon. My (wrong) assumption was that I could present my idea to a friendly group of fellow researchers to get useful feedback and advice. Instead, every tiny inconstancy and imprecise use of terminology was berated.

Advice from my supervisor (he couldn??(TM)t make it to my talk because he was out of the country at the time, but got emails expressing concerned from practically every researcher who was there): ??oeYou??(TM)re too far along in your career to get away with presenting half-baked ideas (though he said it was very good when I rehearsed the presentation with him the week before). Some of these people are so certain that they are right that they are very difficult to convince otherwise, even when they're wrong, which actually happens quite often??. I have to be super-rock-solid in knowing my stuff. Even with these so-called ??oefriends??.

My supervisor was supportive and impressed that I was not completely emotionally shattered by the experience. Note: I was certainly shattered, but chanting the Hare Krishna mantra the next morning drew all the emotion out of me and fixed my consciousness. My body is another (ongoing) story: more on that tomorrow.

I still think that my idea for incremental classification would work, but now it is probably best done in a different way by someone other than me. Also, now everyone in the department thinks I??(TM)m an idiot and don??(TM)t know what I??(TM)m talking about (and lots of people feel really sorry for me for being ripped apart so severely). So, I??(TM)m going to change the direction of my research away from the hard-core description logic to a more practical/maintenance focus.

Someone today asked me if the experience has put me off. It certainly has put me off logic. If becoming a logician turns people into a blood thirsty vampires, that??(TM)s not a career path of choice for me. I also prefer doing things which are of practically use. Formal logic can get rather theoretical.

So, in the end: my armour is cracked, my body is wounded, but I??(TM)m still alive. Time to regroup and fight a new battle on another day.

Devamrita Swami: Pariksit questions the rasa-lila
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Place: Heidelberg Temple, Germany
Time: 41 min.

Summary:
Emperor Pariksit asks Sukadeva Goswami: Why is the maintainer of moral principles breaking these very principles by dancing with other people??(TM)s wives in the middle of the night?

The answer is that spiritually super-powerful people (like Siva and Vishnu) transgress ordinary piety and impiety. Krishna is in everyone: everything and everyone belongs to him. He does not accumulate karma. Everything he does increases the pleasure of his devotees.

Questions:

  • The four Kumaras refused to get married, so Brahma created other children to increase the population of the Universe. All these people were pure devotees. So therefore, is family life spiritual?
  • Please say some more about how we need to be ready to hear about the rasa-lila and can??(TM)t just jump straight to it.
  • Please say some more about the position of the gopis??(TM) husbands.

Devamrita Swami: Pariksit questions the rasa-lila
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Place: Heidelberg Temple, Germany
Time: 41 min.

Summary:
Emperor Pariksit asks Sukadeva Goswami: Why is the maintainer of moral principles breaking these very principles by dancing with other people??(TM)s wives in the middle of the night?

The answer is that spiritually super-powerful people (like Siva and Vishnu) transgress ordinary piety and impiety. Krishna is in everyone: everything and everyone belongs to him. He does not accumulate karma. Everything he does increases the pleasure of his devotees.

Questions:

  • The four Kumaras refused to get married, so Brahma created other children to increase the population of the Universe. All these people were pure devotees. So therefore, is family life spiritual?
  • Please say some more about how we need to be ready to hear about the rasa-lila and can??(TM)t just jump straight to it.
  • Please say some more about the position of the gopis??(TM) husbands.

Vedicsoc: session #6
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Not much to report on for Vedicsoc today. None of the new people from last week came. However, three of the regulars attended. Slow-deep stretch yoga was so relaxing that it put two of the attendees to sleep. Oh well. I repeated the discussion from last week, since this was an (almost) entirely new audience.

Vedicsoc: session #6
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Not much to report on for Vedicsoc today. None of the new people from last week came. However, three of the regulars attended. Slow-deep stretch yoga was so relaxing that it put two of the attendees to sleep. Oh well. I repeated the discussion from last week, since this was an (almost) entirely new audience.

Devamrita Swami: Levels of understanding of God
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Place: Heidelberg Temple, Germany
Time: 76 min.

Summary:
There is a huge gap between belief in God and understanding Krishna. Any civilized human being can believe in God. So what? Understanding Krishna however gives freedom from repeated birth, doing the same few basic activities over and over again and eventual death. Many people however want God to stay out of our affairs. Krishna hides himself from such people.

Devamrita Swami gives the example of his father??(TM)s desire to enjoy the satisfaction of seeing his children happy at Christmas. Some slight selfishness is always there in us, but Krishna acts without motives. He acts simply to please his devotees.

While Krishna gets no reactions for His actions, we most certainly do. Devamrita Swami??(TM)s father, after returning from a world-trip, told his fianc?©e: ??oeI??(TM)ve seen that there are other ways of relating to God than through Jesus?? and received a heavy reaction. If we act according to Krishna??(TM)s direction we??(TM)ll be free from reactions, but as long as we have material motives then there will be reactions.

Questions:

  • Is it part of Krishna consciousness to become free from karma?
  • Doesn??(TM)t Krishna have some desire for us to become Krishna conscious and he therefore isn??(TM)t desireless?
  • Do we relate with Krishna, or does he relate with us?
  • New devotees might be serving Krishna for his own benefit. Will selfless service automatically develop?
  • Is it similar with serving the devotees? Will the heart gradually soften simply by mechanical service?

Devamrita Swami: Levels of understanding of God
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Place: Heidelberg Temple, Germany
Time: 76 min.

Summary:
There is a huge gap between belief in God and understanding Krishna. Any civilized human being can believe in God. So what? Understanding Krishna however gives freedom from repeated birth, doing the same few basic activities over and over again and eventual death. Many people however want God to stay out of our affairs. Krishna hides himself from such people.

Devamrita Swami gives the example of his father??(TM)s desire to enjoy the satisfaction of seeing his children happy at Christmas. Some slight selfishness is always there in us, but Krishna acts without motives. He acts simply to please his devotees.

While Krishna gets no reactions for His actions, we most certainly do. Devamrita Swami??(TM)s father, after returning from a world-trip, told his fianc?©e: ??oeI??(TM)ve seen that there are other ways of relating to God than through Jesus?? and received a heavy reaction. If we act according to Krishna??(TM)s direction we??(TM)ll be free from reactions, but as long as we have material motives then there will be reactions.

Questions:

  • Is it part of Krishna consciousness to become free from karma?
  • Doesn??(TM)t Krishna have some desire for us to become Krishna conscious and he therefore isn??(TM)t desireless?
  • Do we relate with Krishna, or does he relate with us?
  • New devotees might be serving Krishna for his own benefit. Will selfless service automatically develop?
  • Is it similar with serving the devotees? Will the heart gradually soften simply by mechanical service?

Germany tour #2 acknowledgements
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20|1Over the following weeks I'll be posting lectures of my spiritual master, Devamrita Swami, recorded during his recent tour of Germany (be sure to subscribe by pressing the green button). Thanks to Guruvani for expertly recording these. I sadly could not join my guru on the tour due to poor health.

These pictures are of Guruvani's and Bhumna Krishna's visit to my parent's house in Germany shortly before jetting off to a far away country.

Germany tour #2 acknowledgements
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20|1Over the following weeks I'll be posting lectures of my spiritual master, Devamrita Swami, recorded during his recent tour of Germany (be sure to subscribe by pressing the green button). Thanks to Guruvani for expertly recording these. I sadly could not join my guru on the tour due to poor health.

These pictures are of Guruvani's and Bhumna Krishna's visit to my parent's house in Germany shortly before jetting off to a far away country.

New features on deltaflow
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There are a couple of new features on my blog that I though I??(TM)d tell you about. Have you notice the colorful buttons under the ??oemeta?? heading on the right side of the page? Here??(TM)s what they do:

Do you want to be automatically kept up to date with the latest interesting sounds from the spiritual world? Well, today is your lucky day. Just click the green button.

You can automatically subscribe to my MP3 Podcasts using Apple??(TM)s iTunes application by pressing the green ??oeSubscribe?? button. By doing this your computer??(TM)s iTunes media player software (and iPod, if you have one) will automatically download the latest talks and lecture I publish. I??(TM)ll be releasing a bunch of new MP3s very soon, so keep your ears primed.

Using iTunes is easier, if you know what you??(TM)re doing you can use any RSS Podcast aggregator (like iPodder) to subscribe. ??oeRSS Podcast?? button allows you to get the standard Really Simple Syndication (RSS) news/mp3 feed from my website.

Finally, the ??oeBF Mapstats?? button allows you to see many people from around the world who visit this website. Click on and see the physical location of the last five people who visited in a Google Map. Neat stuff (it??(TM)s a service offered by a website called BlogFlux, hence the BF title).

New features on deltaflow
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There are a couple of new features on my blog that I though I??(TM)d tell you about. Have you notice the colorful buttons under the ??oemeta?? heading on the right side of the page? Here??(TM)s what they do:

Do you want to be automatically kept up to date with the latest interesting sounds from the spiritual world? Well, today is your lucky day. Just click the green button.

You can automatically subscribe to my MP3 Podcasts using Apple??(TM)s iTunes application by pressing the green ??oeSubscribe?? button. By doing this your computer??(TM)s iTunes media player software (and iPod, if you have one) will automatically download the latest talks and lecture I publish. I??(TM)ll be releasing a bunch of new MP3s very soon, so keep your ears primed.

Using iTunes is easier, if you know what you??(TM)re doing you can use any RSS Podcast aggregator (like iPodder) to subscribe. ??oeRSS Podcast?? button allows you to get the standard Really Simple Syndication (RSS) news/mp3 feed from my website.

Finally, the ??oeBF Mapstats?? button allows you to see many people from around the world who visit this website. Click on and see the physical location of the last five people who visited in a Google Map. Neat stuff (it??(TM)s a service offered by a website called BlogFlux, hence the BF title).

Re-install, re-start, re-fresh
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I reinstalled Windows XP on my computer over the weekend. My lowly Dell Inspiron 4150 laptop was showing its age. The operating system was clogged up lots and lots of old applications and orphaned data. It was time for a spring clean.

I deleted everything (after doing a backup) and started from scratch. It took three days to install all the many, many programs, utilities and applications I use. I must have downloaded gigabytes of updates and software. Windows itself is the worst culprit. The amount of patches and updates Microsoft has released in 3 years is mind-boggling.

As Gopala-Guru has remarked recently: something as complex as Windows needs constant tweaking and fixing by highly intelligent software engineers. Something even more complex, like the human body, supposedly came about completely by chance and involved no intelligent design whatsoever. Uh-hu ??¦

Yes, sometimes it is necessary to tear down the decrepit, old, moldy, rotten and highly unstable foundations and start over. A fresh new beginning to break free from past paradigms can work wonders. Free from debt and in a new attractive, city-center location ...

It certainly worked well for my computer. It runs so much faster now. Almost like new. The austerity of the re-install will help me get a few more months of life out of this machine.